In a rare and raw moment, singer Crush opened up to fans about the darkest chapter of his life—one shaped by pain, isolation, and the uncertainty of ever returning to the stage.

On May 20, Crush took to Instagram to share a set of poignant lyrics and a short video, offering what appears to be a first glimpse at an unreleased or upcoming track. But this wasn’t your average teaser—these words cut deep, pulling back the curtain on the emotional and physical toll of his herniated disc surgery, which sidelined him from music in June 2023.

“I learned how to live in the pitch-black silence. Turn the switch off... There's no feeling in my legs. A whole day passed staring at the ceiling. I wanted to dive deep into the ocean. I saw my mom and dad cry.”

It’s a gut-wrenching portrayal of what Crush endured while lying in a hospital bed, facing both the fear of never performing again and the weight of watching his parents worry. The imagery is vivid—“the smell of the operating room still lingers in my nose”—and the emotion is raw. His words don’t sugarcoat the experience; instead, they echo the sentiments of someone who nearly lost his voice, both literally and figuratively.

Crush also referenced a time he performed at Yonsei University, injecting painkillers just to stand on stage. The lyrics “Can I ever stand there again?” hit hard, reminding fans that even the brightest stars sometimes burn quietly behind the curtain.

Back in December, he revealed more on the YouTube show Yongtaro, explaining how the post-op recovery—two months completely bedridden—was far from restful. “At first, I thought I’d enjoy the break, but I quickly became emotionally drained,” he admitted.

Fans have since flooded social media with messages of encouragement:

🗣️ “These lyrics hit too close to home. Crush is so brave for sharing this.”
💬 “We love you, Crush. We’ll wait as long as it takes.”
❤️ “The stage isn’t going anywhere. We’ll be here when you’re ready.”

Crush’s return to music—whenever and however it comes—will no doubt be powerful. Whether or not these lyrics make it onto an official track, they’ve already resonated deeply with fans. It’s proof that healing isn’t just physical—it’s also poetic.

Let’s keep cheering for Crush as he reclaims his light, one lyric at a time. 🌟