Fated To Save You- By: Tina Marie

Chapter 49 - Reflections and Doubts

Last Updated on 2024-10-10 19:38:23

The morning sun streamed through the window, casting a soft light across the room where Wren sat at her desk, the doctor’s journal open before her. She took a deep breath, her thoughts lingering on the events of the previous day. The smile that had crept onto her face as she reflected on her walk with Connor now felt distant, overshadowed by a rising tide of self-doubt.

She began to write, her pen scratching softly on the page.

Journal Entry: Friday (November 19th)

Today, I decided to follow through with the doctor’s suggestion and be brave. I gathered the courage to ask Connor if he would go for a walk with me—one where we would also hold hands. I knew he would agree, but his reaction was more enthusiastic than I expected. He finished his work quickly and waited eagerly for me to take his hand.

At first, I was so nervous. My fingers were trembling slightly as they intertwined with his. But as we walked, a sense of comfort began to envelop me. It was strange how quickly I felt at ease, something I never experienced with Trevor.

Looking back, I realize that what I thought was love for Trevor was actually something much less profound. Perhaps I never truly loved him. It feels like I was just fond of him as a friend rather than a lover.

With Connor, everything feels different. Despite the shadows of my past, his presence brings a surprising sense of peace. I’m beginning to recognize that the feelings I have for him are deeper and more genuine. I even find myself wanting to be close to him, to touch him, which scares me a bit.

Yesterday, when he hugged me, I was overwhelmed and tensed up. His touch, though well-intentioned, frightened me. I hate that I might be a buzzkill to his happiness. I worry that he’s growing tired of dealing with me, with my fears and reservations.

A boyfriend should be able to touch his girlfriend, right? No guy wants to be restricted to holding hands and waiting for permission to show affection. Am I asking too much of him? Is he getting frustrated with my constant hesitations?

I feel like I’m becoming a burden. Maybe he’s growing weary of me. I’m growing weary of myself.

Wren closed the journal with a sigh, her heart weighed down by the words she had penned. Her initial optimism had waned, replaced by a creeping sense of inadequacy. Tears welled up in her eyes as she stared blankly at the closed book.

Surely, Connor will get tired of me eventually. Despite his declarations of love and his seemingly sincere intentions, no one would want to endure this kind of struggle indefinitely.

A single tear traced a path down her cheek. Wren felt the sting of despair as she questioned the validity of her hopes and the strength of her attachment.

I shouldn’t get too attached or let my hopes rise too high. He’ll probably leave me in the end, just like I fear.

The room seemed to close in around her as she wrestled with her thoughts, the journal’s pages a stark reminder of her internal conflict.

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Wren Andrews

Vibrant, Outgoing, and Lovable Has become depressed, quiet, and suicidal Daughter of Jeremy and Vanessa Andrews 19 years old College Student and Future CEO of JVW Enterprises
Conner Wilson

Popular, Warm, Outgoing, and Top of Class Has had a crush on Wren for 5 years Oldest son of William and Sarah Wilson 22 years old College Student (Business) and Future CEO of WinX Inc
Riley Wilson

Funny, Likes to party, and is super flirty Conner’s little brother and best friend 19 years old BFF with Wren and Riley College student/Slacker Future Vice President of WinX Inc
Stormi Collins

Lovable, Kind, Studies a lot, and super cute personality Wren’s best friend and cousin 19 years old College Student living with Wren’s family Future Vice President of JVW Enterprises
Rex Smith

Handsome, Popular, and Good at sports Conner’s best friend 21 years old Son of Ryan and Becca Smith College Student (Business)
Trevor Wilkins

Wren’s boyfriend/Ex Secretive, Badboy, and Jerk 22 years old Son of Matthew and Leslie Wilkins College Student (Computer Science)